I don't know how to stand yet. Do I look like a dolt? Yeah...Kinda dolt-like.
Dress: Target
Cardigan: H&M (When on earth are we getting one in Winnipeg?!)
Tights: Accessorize
Boots: Shoe Warehouse
Necklace: Ardene's
This photo looks like a GHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOST! OOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!
I once read an article about Melissa Joan Hart in which she said it was "devastating" to learn that she was someting like 175 pounds. Ok - number one - I would KILL to be 175 pounds. Seriously. And number two - I really think that word "devastating" should be used when you find out about the death of a loved one or that you lost your job. How did being overweight become the absolute WORST thing that could happen to someone?! It's articles like these and all the magazine covers that read "Best Diet Ever!" and "Lose Your Tummy Fat FAST!" and "Seriously?! You Haven't Lost That Fat Yet? How Bout You Lock Yourself in a Room and Never Come Out!!" that make me feel like I am not good enough at my current weight. How do I get past this?
No seriously. I'm asking. I have no idea. Taking pictures of myself everyday and forcing myself to talk about all this ridiculosity is actually making me start to feel better. Oh it's a long freakin road. I get it. I still have to choose to go to the gym and NOT eat 6 mini Imperial Cookies (true story).
But at least I'm on the road at all.
Relax, you are one of those who looks good in pictures:-) Let your guard down and snap away!
ReplyDeleteI think one way to get over it is to avoid the media. Magazines and advertising have an obviously narrow portrayal of what constitutes beauty and they pray on women's insecurities to sell issues/products. I agree with you in regards to Melissa Joan Hart- the earthquake in Haiti is devastating, the oil spill is devastating, her weight is NOT devastating. You sound like you have a good perspective and you look gorgeous by the way.
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I used to be 175lbs, and I didn't notice until someone told me I was "fat" and drew a cartoon of me eating lard and put it in my locker (Dustin Fillion, cough cough...Asshole..cough. Also, cue continuing and possibly life long preoccupation with body image problems). It's so nice to just have a body and not be aware of the boundaries put around it. Like, the literal boundaries. Numbers, sizes, weight, and how you just DON'T FIT into the idealized numbers, sizes and weight, and clothes! It's more than being thin, and it's more than being fat. It's so much more.
ReplyDeleteWe are worth SO much more than 0 (the idealized waist [read: WASTE] size for Hollywood).
You're so fucking pretty.
xo
Thank you ladies for those comments. You guys are freakin awesome.
ReplyDeleteAnd Marcie I really hope that fellow trips and rips his pants and skins his knee. Cuz that picture situation is straight up RUDE.